It started this morning when my mom randomly decided to use our bathroom at 6:45 in the morning. WHY MOTHER? WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT? I woke up to the sound of my bathroom door closing and wasn't able to go back to sleep. At 8:30 I got out of bed and realized that all I wanted to do was make pancakes. Not to eat them or anything. Just to make them.
So I made pancakes. They were ok.
Then I went to school. Then at school I didn't want to be at school. I was like, bajshdjakhsfkfsdkf this is stupid I don't want to sit around for my stupid religion class where we DONT EVEN DO ANYTHING. Seriously. All I really wanted to do was go outside and pick flowers and dry them.
Yesterday, I went over to my grandparents house, and my grandmother and I talked about art projects I could do with dried flowers. And since then all I really want to do is dry flowers. So. I was like, why am I sitting here in agony?
So I left school, then I decided to go look for POM ice tea because I've been craving it for a few days. So I went to Giant. Then I realized that I really wanted to make cupcakes. So I bought some Funfetti cake mix and I came home and I made cupcakes.
Then Salma came home and asked me why I was acting so weird. I was like, "uhhh why am I acting weird?" And she was like, "It's so uncharacteristic of you to bake."
And I realized that it really is. She's the baker. But, I dont know. I guess what I liked about baking is that I followed a set of instructions and I finished them. Easy come easy go. I didn't have to think for a little bit.
What's wrong with me right now? I feel like. I feel like everything I want to do right now is impossible. And I'm just tired of having to wait.
That's the thing that sucks about living such restricted lives- we're always waiting. But the funny thing is, that we're restricting ourselves which things that have been deemed as "necessary" such as school and work and whatever. I know exactly what you mean about waiting Ran, cause I feel exactly the same way.
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